Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day!  Hope all of you wonderful mothers have had a great day like I have.  I started off my day as I usually do, getting up late on a Sunday morning and missing breakfast at church but we all did make it to service and I'm so glad I did.  My sister sang a beautiful song and trust me I wasn't planning on crying but I did.  I miss my Mom today, she passed away three years next month and for some reason it has hit me really hard today.  I have tried really hard to have a great day with my girls and my hubby and I have.  Hubby made me a special dinner on the grill-chicken and steak kabobs with baked potatoes and my girls made me special teddy bear love pins at church and little one has been saying "Happy Mother's Day" all day with kisses and hugs.  My mom has been on my mind all day and I for some reason feel guilty.  My oldest daughter just held my hand and told me that she understood why I was down today.  That means so much to me coming from her, because when my Mom passed away she was 5 years old and I was pregnant with my youngest.  Remembering my Mom on this day and all that I went through during the process of her passing, it seems like yesterday.  I feel guilty because after we got out of church and was going to Walmart to  get my girls shoes, my husband got angry at me.  I asked him why he was getting an attitude with me and he asked me "Did you ever stop to think if I had plans for you today?"  I said no that I figured after he had spent money on me to buy flowers and a new American flag that he didn't have any other plans for me.  I had even asked him on Friday night if he had anything else going of which he said he said no.  Then he pulls this on me today.  So needless to say, I got attitude for most of the day before it finally kicked in that "Hey maybe she is upset about something" never realizing that I was thinking about my Mom.  He wanted to take me to my Mom's grave and for a possible relaxing ride up North.  So, I say God bless my husband because his intentions and thoughts were there and he truly showed me that he cared.  I love this man, through his fault and our arguments, 15 years with him and there's no one I would imagine spending my life with.  On this Mother's Day, whereas I love my kids and enjoy spending the time with them, I miss and love my Mom tremendously and wish I could get "one more moment" with her where I could just say I LOVE YOU.  Happy Mother' Day.